Surprising Insights to Myself

Posted on July 7th, 2008 by Brian Sparks.
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Last week I grabbed a few people whom I think know me pretty well. A friend of mine Shane gave me an idea to try. At the same time I was reading a book “Good to Great” which provided me with the appropriate questions.

The goal was not to get people to say nice things about me but to see if anyone out there was putting the puzzle together more effectively than I. The question “What am I good at” did not appear in the questions. But the question “What am I the Best At” was. The idea was to see if anyone noticed what I am great at and if I am actually working at what I am best at.

Just because I am Great at something does not mean that I am good at it. But what it does mean is that I have the capability of being the best at it. So the things that others have labeled as I am the best at does not mean that I am, but I have the potential to be the best at it. So here are my surprising insights.

Surprising Insights:

1. My Passions seem to be quite transparent. Everyone mentioned that my passions had something to do with me ministering to individuals, making everyone feel special, to help each one grow closer to God.

Funny. I have recently read the book “48 Days to the Work You Love.” I found that music is not a passion of mine. Leading others into worship is not a passion of mine. Being in front of a congregation is not a passion of mine. What is? Helping an individual. After discovering this fundamental passion I find it surprising how everyone else knew it.

2. What Am I Great At? Once again, this is not something that I might be good at, but it might be something that I can be great at. I really was expecting a few to say music just because that is my current position in ministry. Therefore, some just associate me with music. But everyone still said “discipleship” or some type of “education administration.”

Now the secret is out why I put out the survey. Am I working in an area where God has gifted me to be good, or am I working in an area where God has gifted me to be great? Once again I go back to my notes in the book “48 days to the work you love”. Music is not in there. I think that I am good at music but something frustrates me. My favorite time of the week is not choir practice or band practice. You know what it is? Two things, having coffee with individuals in the music ministry and the 15 minute Bible study that I give in every choir practice. THAT’S IT. It’s not leading a congregation when the Holy Spirit immerses the congregation. I do enjoy that but it’s not my favorite. It doesn’t call me out of bed.

I always tried fulfilling my giftedness of ministry and teaching through the worship ministry. I was trying to go from A to B by connecting C. I just never put A to B in a straight line. Yeah, I know that last statement only makes sense to me. I was trying to teach those in the worship ministry instead of seeing my calling as a teacher.

3. So here was the straight forward question “What is my Calling?” The overwhelming answer is discipleship. Some said teaching or education or family ministries. Only a couple said music but I claim that the main reason is that is my current position. Also, I’m not bad at it, but I don’t think I have the ability to be great at it.

It’s no surprise that this survey has turned up the answers. It does surprise me how transparent these answers were to everyone. It seems that the busyness of the music ministry was blinding me of my calling. It is also no surprise that as job offers have come and gone, doing another music ministry has only been a turn off.

Now what do I do? Where do I go from here?

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3 comments.

Kevin

Comment on July 7th, 2008.

Hey – I’ve read both those books. Great, thought provoking reads. This may not help, but is it possible that your position as a worship leader is a means to fulfilling your passions? Would you have the opportunity to disciple those individuals without the credibility you’ve earned as their leader? I don’t know, just wondering!

Brian Sparks

Comment on July 7th, 2008.

Nice insight. I believe that you might be right.

I remember growing up believing that God only calls “preachers” so the idea of me being a music minister was really me being a rebel against my own thinking. Once I submitted to God is seems that He is adding and taking away ministries. I once felt a huge desire to do youth and He lead me in directions to do youth.

Could this just be a stage in life? Could this be a burned-out desire to not be on a stage?

Joni

Comment on July 25th, 2008.

Well you did great with youth and really connected with us, then you started doing more worship geared things…our praise group, and it was really enjoyable, then it was our bible study and we all enjoyed it. You were really inspiring some nights, and I feel this could be a new stage for you. I mean between what you and I and Dub would talk about you really seemed interested in teaching. It’s like you start really connecting with people in small group settings. You’ve always done well when discipling Dub and me.

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